October 2007
I’ve been at DAAP all day, but my project is nearly finished.
The rest are all due tomorrow.
Then DAAPathon till 7am (doubt I’ll stay that long).
I’m stressed but it’s a good stress I guess. Though my back’s not taking it so well!
TUMBLR UPDATE IN THE MORNIN!!!!!!!!!
Happy Halloween.
GAHHHHHH
All of the sudden, I’m feeling really overwhelmed.
I’m not going to have fun this weekend because I’ll feel out of place with Trev’s group and my camera wont work sunday so I cant take my cousins pictures and my LC is getting away from me but they like me yet we have nothing to do and I wish I really didn’t have that job right now because these projects are getting...
thoughts
DMV cameras: wouldn’t it be nice if, for every yellow light you stopped at, the DMV sent you the picture of you being a good citizen… and a coupon for $20 off your next ticket?
Awesome idea!
WatchVery short test.
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Thought 1
How often do you think people in NYC are thinking about the other people that they are moving en masse with. Or at least, thinking of them AS people, not just obstructions.
Thought 2
I HATE when someone decides that everything the teacher says is mumbled-comment worthy.
“So then, if you look at this picture..”
“I don’t want to”
“And as we take...
I think “resurfacing” is a theme in my life. Not the kind where you fix your table. The kind where something comes up from the depths of your mind or heart and you want it to and wish it hadn’t at the same time.
Lip Dub - Family Mania!! →
For some reason, my embed isn’t working, so just go watch it on vimeo instead… My weekend pretty much summed up in a nutshell of 7ish lip dubs…
Sadness Temporarily Slain!
We have a kitten!
(well, two, but one is only here as a temp. home till we find a new one)
I’d like to stop being sad at least once a day. Shit happens. Things end. Sometimes you do poorly. Sometimes you lose friends, or end friendships. Sometimes people care and just cant be there. Sometimes people don’t care at all.
It’s all shit that happens to most people. So why do I have to feel so “affected” by it. Why does everyone have to feel alone when...
new version of The Hype Machine (great mp3... →
As of writing, it’s at 3,026. Leave it open in a browser window and watch the number climb.
Analysis on Optical Illusions video →
This is neat.
Wow.
Today in Arts & Society, I realized something big about myself.
Expectancy Theory
a. One type of neuron patters is set in motion by information flowing into the brain from the outside world.
b. At the same time the cortex draws on memories and feelings to generate patters of brain activity related to what is expected to happen as a result of what we have already learned.
For some reason,...
I. Hate. Ohio.
89 degrees yesterday
51 today
I’m sneezing up a storm and I’m practically a snot faucet.
I have a friend for whom I care very little because I care too much.
How silly does that sound.
“I feel like if he walked in on us, he’d just whip it out and start jacking...”
– Some girl on the phone that I passed on my bike thismorning
Texts... the only way of communication.
Me: I don't want to give up, but if you keep mute and wont talk about anything, I cant keep up man.
Me: I just want you to take some initiative for once.. I always have to heal shit. I dont think I can this time. You broke me down dude, and either you help me fix it or it's permanantly broken.
Him: Wtf dude. u act like we were datin n i ju cheatd on u.
Me: No, I'm acting like I had a friend who stopped by all the time in the summer, then goes a month without talking to me.
Him: I stoppd by bc i was bored w jus work. now i have work skool skool functions n sports. not a lot of time 2 b bord
Me: So no time to keep in touch? It was just convenient for you to have some place to go this summer? You make it hard for me to WANT to talk to you when you act like friends are something you have when you aren't busy.
Him: Friends r sumthin i can have wen im not busy
Me: Thats such a shitty way to live. I cant work that way. I cant sit till winter break, where I get one call telling me about what you did for half the year.
Him: Y r u sittin till winter break on my fone call? y am i the sole reason 4 u 2 do nething
Me: You aren't! But I dont want to come home in the summer and have a bored kyle at my house if i barely talk to you all year. Trev pays for his own college, but he calls almost weekly. Bags cant find time to talk on the phone, but we give each other updates to stay in touch, You HAVE friends at home to have poker parties with, but you arent willing ot keep the old ones.
Him: Would u like an email? im writin a paper now so im already on the computer
Me: I can go without phone calls. It was the lack of all contact that sucked. You had some problem, so you stopped talking. I don't want to have to deal with that like I have for two years... I just dont feel like you give a shit.
Him: A lot of people get that vibe from me. n u were the one that prev said if i dont call by tmrw then our friendship is over
Me: That was mildly joking... But whats that have to do with it? Thats not me not giving a shit. Thats me caring too much for the both of us.
Him: U jus said u can deal if i dont call even tho prev i said itd b way easier if we jus talkd online
Me: The call was me trying to just get to talk for real after none whatsoever. If we had been talking online since I left it wouldn't have been a big deal.
Him: N we hadnt talkd bc u irritatd me
Me: Which you didn't tell me. And which is immature. You sure irritated the hell out of me that day as well..
Shit.
Make new friend.
You and said friend miraculously get along very well.
You and friend hang out all the time, for a while.
After a few months friend gets girlfriend.
You realise you liked this friend.
Your frienship is rocky as fuck. This friend isn’t good at friendship.
Friend says he thinks you were treating him like his girlfriend does.
You and friend work out new sitution.
Friend...
WatchIncredible charcoal animation drawn all over the walls of an apartment.
Wall Animation - CollegeHumor video via Randomest
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I know it’s only week three, but I’m already feeling the wear and tear. I’m sure everyone is. I’m just so tired all of the time. Honestly, I don’t see how anyone goes out… ever, let alone EVERY fucking night. Tuesdays and Thursdays spent entirely in DAAP, and M, W, F running around for my LC shit and drafting all day is really getting to me. I think...