ok nvm

fake gay bar T-15

Lonesome tonight.

Feelin’ that single feeling tonight.  Thought about going to the AugustGQB, but too scared to go alone (lame, right?).

I don’t know if I’m up for hanging out after David, Laura & Co. get out of their movie.  I’m really winding down here.  David was 4 beers deep before the movie, and Eric went to get his flask… yikes.

Coonz.

nattle:

Cameron: I just kicked a racoon.
Cameron: kicked it.
Me: hahahhaha
Cameron: he was fighting with Charlie on the front porch
Cameron: they smashed a jar
Cameron: and i ran out
Cameron: got charlie in the house
Cameron: turned around
Cameron: and KICKED it

You don’t hurt my chillens.

Sometimes you give a really big hug.

And sometimes all you can do is be someone to talk to.  You could worry and mollycoddle all you want, but when everything is complicated, listening and being an outlet is as simple as you can get.

Things usually turn out alright.  Not right away, though.

Brain Chemistry

Some days I feel uncomfortable and it takes me a while to place that feeling as sadness.  About what?  Nothing, usually.

Days like that make the smallest things make me feel terrible, and that’s a precarious line to toe.  Happy on my couch reading a book after my exam, but a hope for lunch with David & Laura and a misunderstood text response leaves me on my own and really sad.  It’s pretty terrible.  NOT their fault, at ALL… it’s this terrible mental shit I go through for the dumbest of situations.

Sucks.

Now I’m in that limbo stage where I keep getting these waves of melancholy mixed with smiling.  What?

Going back in time.

Before bed, I decided to peruse some super old pages of my Tumblr.  Here’s a jump back about two years:

May 4, 2008 - A blissful break in SigmaSigma with Jenny, Jonathan, and Emily:

July 5, 2008 - Vimeo Meetup in Chicago:

August 13, 2008 - Farm Trip:

and the best summer:

August 22, 2008 : That one time by bike appeared at the top of a light pole:

Found an awesome “digital architecture” firm in Brooklyn

They describe their workplace this way:

We offer an intense, but casual, design-driven work environment, with very rapid turnaround on projects. Smart, anti-corporate office in Dumbo, Brooklyn. Good 150GB+ iTunes library. Friendly, upbeat and intelligent environment.

They are awesome, but for interns they look for “3D modeling/rendering using FormZ, 3DS Max, Autocad or Maya.”  I’ve used FormZ & CAD but not the second for 3d modeling.  Pretty neat firm though.

Playing in Illustrator for a break

I shut my computer just to try to focus

and I couldn’t do it!  I realized I was staring at one flashcard for over 10 minutes.  Just thinking.  About bricks and different directions you could put them in the wall and how you could make patterns that people maybe wouldn’t see right away but later they would.

WHAT IS MY BRAIN ON!?

This.  Sucks.  When my phone beeps to say I have an e-mail my face lights up like a 5 year old on his birthday.  I’m ridiculous.

Poison Ivy

jenniferstafford:

Has invaded my wrists, 
to the point where the pharmacist gave me all of the fixings to look like Richie Tenenbaum at the end of the movie.

1) The only time I had poison ivy really bad was on my wrists.  They swelled up.  And it stayed for so long.

2) Where did you do this to yourself!?